As you have probably already figured out, I did not win NaNoWriMo this year. I’ve been trying to spend less time beating myself up this year and more time focusing on what I am accomplishing. For example, I did not come even close to winning NaNo. But I did write something. I have the project set up on Scrivener and it’s there for me to work on, whenever I can or do.
I’m behind on my reading goal for 2018. But in the same year I moved twice, went out of town multiple times, took on two jobs, and started two new volunteer positions, I have (so far) finished 82 books. And most of those have been either print or Kindle books. I’ve been on a podcast kick this year, so those have taken up most of my listening time.
Being consistent with this blog has been harder during the second half of this year, but in exchange, I have been much more present in my own life. Don’t get me wrong – I do not plan to give up blogging any time soon. But I am learning to be more merciful with myself if I’m struggling to churn posts out. I have written up what I believe is a sustainable blogging plan for 2019. Right now, I do not plan to share it here. I believe this will help me manage my own expectations for myself better.
If I force myself to perform because I told the internet I would, I will fail. I have seen this play out multiple times over the past couple of years. So 2019 will be a little different. I have a plan, things I want to do and write about and books I want to read. But I will be mapping out my own goals, making my own (very flexible) plan, and keeping them to myself. I will say this, though: I am excited about 2019. I want this to be the year that my blog really comes into its own and I sort out its identity. Not based on anyone else’s expectations, but based on what I want my little corner of the internet to look like.
I wish I could remember where I read this, but I have been trying to take a piece of wisdom I came across this year to heart. Do not write what other people want you to write. Write what you want to write. The people who want to read what you want to write will come. Just write.
Writing is hard. Any writer will tell you so. Every writer has both a deep love and a deep hatred for their craft. It is simultaneously agonizing and freeing. It is the best and worst path I could have chosen for myself. My heart is found in every piece I craft and it is exhausting. I never want to lose the humanness of writing or become the type that just churns pieces out for the sake of churning them out. So my promise in 2019 is that no matter what shows up on Finding Land, it will always be a piece of me. What I am gleaning from God’s word, my heart for ministering to women, my deep love for books, and my fascination with uncommon factoids and histories (betcha didn’t know that one!). I will try to keep publishing posts in December, but do not be surprised if I disappear a little again. I’m coming back.
Thank you for reading my blog. Even if this is the first post you’ve ever read on Finding Land, I appreciate you. I am thankful for every unique person that reads my posts. It’s mind-blowing to me that even one person (that isn’t my mom haha) would want to read what I have to say. I hope that in 2019, my little corner of the universe can be a place of encouragement, enrichment, and learning for you. I know it will be for me.